Another note from Journal Entries.
I have chosen to share impressions of a personal journey in the form of notes, journaling and impressions that have arisen upon contemplation. I do not consider myself to be an expert on the topics discussed yet I am currently the leading expert on my journey, just as you are the leading expert on yours. I discuss the intangible and how one might relate to such a realm, were it to exist. I present this material with confidence that portions of the content will be useful to others on their unique journeys.
The notes have been an effort to articulate both experience and meaning, and to assist in remembering the impressions that were coming to me. One might expect that because I am immersed in the subjects of my investigations I would immediately recall the impressions clearly. For me, without little prompts, or extended pauses to remember, I sometimes don’t recall the specific material put together even during the previous day. I attribute this challenge to having a lot of different stuff on my mind and living in the moment.
Within a recent email correspondence a writer confides of her memory that “some of the knowledge is still there, but would need refreshing as {her} memory seems to be close to that of a goldfish.” I immediately connected with that description, recognizing similarities to some of my own memory challenges (with no offense intended toward goldfish).
Journal entries were not specifically intended to record a chronology. The writing was to record whatever was up-welling in my mind at that moment without much regard for that which had been previously written, the intention being to turn down the dominance of thinking and to allow expression of whatever, whenever expression wanted to bubble up. Some of the expressions were variations on previous descriptions of events, and expressions from slightly different perspectives. At times the description of events was in the form of up-welling as poetry. I went with the form as the expression of the moment. My material may appear to be absentmindedly repetitious at times. I include this extra material for those to whom the subtly varied perspectives might be useful. For those others, those that would have preferred that I go directly and sparingly to the point, I offer my most sincere apologies.