Note on pondering and contemplation.
During the sculpting journey I ponder individual words that seem to want my attention. I take time to listen for understanding. As impressions come to mind I write down the expressions as they up-well, as for instance, the note on despair, in the context of the time prior to exploration. This was a time of not being aware of a practical resolution to the situation as to how I would proceed. I no longer felt comfortable relying on critical building blocks of my perceived reality were no longer comfortable to be relying upon and there were no obvious building blocks to replace them.